That’s because my home town, Ealing, is under siege right now. I am watching videos from Youtube (above), the BBC and Twitter pictures in disbelief at what a group of disorganised but opportunistic kids can do in just one night.
I had been away but came home this evening after hearing the news and on the way back into Ealing, I was hassled by a couple of kids no more than twelve years old while I was driving down my road.
Outside now I can hear the helicopter circling, and I can see the pictures being shot from that helicopter of the shop across the road from Ealing Studios, set ablaze and fire fighters doing their best. I am in shock as I see shops, coffee houses and restaurants I visit, smashed and looted. Cars on fire on the street where I walk home.
Twitter is a stream of information, misinformation, worried relatives, stunned residents (often with videos or pix) wondering what the hell has brought this to our door?
I was in Ealing over a decade ago when the IRA set off a car bomb. Now I am here when masked kids run riot, thieving and destroying, unchallenged by an exhausted and over stretched police force.
I feel sad and depressed this this is where, as a society, we find ourselves.
Lord only knows what tomorrow will hold for us all as these terrible events are really just yards from the studio offices.
Chris Jones, Film Maker and Author